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Name: Callum McGowan
Lives In: Morecambe
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Insomnia

when you have insomnia you think it’s a good thing cause you can stay up for ages without sleeping & have a fucked up sleeping pattern so you can do & see things that most people don’t see cause they’re asleep, but being awake when most people aren’t makes you realize how alone you are, the boredom takes over you & all you can do is Think, now thinking to me is something that we all do obviously but too much of it is never good anyone who’s ever just sat their thinking for hours starts to lose hope, faith, a bit of sanity in a way cause you see things in a different way to everyone else & you see how lonely you actually are you don’t have anything or anyone in reality when you think about it life is the worst thing created well at least humans cause all we’ve done is slowly destroy the planet that we inhabited, we don’t care about anything but ourselves we’re all selfish deep down you only think about yourself, at times you give over people a thought but that’s only usually for your own gain, religion? well everyone believes in something but me, i believe in nothing im an atheist, when you die your dead nothing happens just………… everyone is entitled to their own beliefs, but the truth is the only thing i see, and truth, truth is one of the worst things you can uncover truth about family, friends, you, the person you eventually know you really are, i don’t know how i feel exactly at this time about anything but 1 thing i am sure of is that life is meaningless if you stop & think what everything would be like without human life you would agree with me, nature on the other hand is beautiful lots of animals live in harmony their conflict is natural it’s what has to happen but our conflict ours is just made by people, those same selfish people, i for one enjoy things in life like when you get to be free at times & forget that your part of this world but at the back of your mind you still don’t know anything, we get taught things by people who have been taught, but how does anyone know this stuff? everything could just be one big lie, but we can never prove nor disprove this so we just live our lives looking for answers, answers that we never find & just before we die our memory’s flash before our eyes well what if they don’t what if you finally see the truth? well theirs only one way to find that out & that’s by dying, death is inevitable some people try to escape it but i prefer to accept it & i personally couldn’t care if i died in seconds or billions of years but the time i spend on this earth i’ll be forever wondering what is the point? i know that at times things get better but these are rare occasions & you have to be lucky to get these which i am not, i can never see life becoming a good thing im not saying a bad thing it’s just neutral we’re not sure what to think about it, some people are afraid of asking questions cause they don’t really want to know the answer, me? im not one of those people im my own person and im the person that likes to aspire but knows that at the end of the day their are some things that i will always want to know & do but i will never get the chance to do or find out < so i guess this is my life at the time being, if you read all of this then i would imagine your slightly like me always curious to know what’s happening around you, well don’t be like this, change because nobody should ever be like this or think these things not even me i don’t even feel bad for myself i feel bad for everyone around me for making their live worse but i can’t change that their are no such things as mistakes, luck, fortune or misfortune, good or bad, different emotions everything is just what it is & nothing else so don’t regret the past, live for the now & always be looking to the future & to finding answers to the questions that you have, if you’ve read all this then, thanks, i appreciate that you have listened to me now you know my mind & part of my life sorry to bore you with the details but i tried to make it brief, Goodbye :/

My best friend texted me, he asked if I looked nice right now. I told him no, and he said to get ready so I look good, not to him, but to myself. Only text him back If I felt happy with how I looked. This confused me but I didn’t ask questions. I just got ready, and finally after an hour or two, I told him I felt happy with how I looked, sort of. The door rang about 10 minutes later, and my friends told me to come with them to the park. This confused me but I didn’t ask questions, I was bored anyways. We walked to the park, it wasn’t that far, and they said to sit on the swing set. I didn’t really like the swings at this park because it was the very place my first love broke up with me & shattered my heart. Just sitting on the swing hurt a bit, I went into silence at the memories. Suddenly, I was blindfolded. When my friends took it off, there he was. The boy who told me to get ready, I liked this boy, he was my best friend. He handed me a rose and got down on his knee. “I know this is one of your least favorite places. I also know you stopped believing in love after 2 shots to the chest. And you don’t like change. But this is good change, I think. I want to change this swingset from the place where you closed your door to love to the place where it just began. I’ve sat by & watched you get hurt long enough. You’re beautiful, smart, talented, sweet, funny. And impatient. So, I won’t drag this out. I love you, & I’d like to be your boyfriend…Will you go out with me?” This boy was my 3rd love, he made me feel special. It’s been 5 long years, and just today, he said those exact words. To propose.

whitneylovesit:

you-make-me-feel-like-i-was:

babyshesbroken:

jaidancouuuture:

UGH, why cant my life be like that . so cuute

An I the only one who teared up??

OMG tears!!!!’

c’: OMG Cutest Thing Ever, I’d Do This! :’)

Tired

Right just gonna go on a rant here but it confuses me when people on here write statuses about not being good enough for example. recently someone i follow on here wrote one about how they are nothing in comparison to tumblr girls, they go on about half naked photo’s which they post cause well they feel alone & it’s nice to be complimented some people see this as having no self respect or just hate cause they’re jealous but she’s her own person  if she’s comfortable with her body it isn’t up to people to judge what she does just accept it, if you like it then compliment her if not then move on but don’t make her feel worse than she already does, she doesn’t think she can live up to the standards of the tumblr girls ‘perfection’ but nobody’s perfect even tumblr girls im sure that in person they have the exact same problems as everyone else & personally i believe that this one girl who thinks she is nothing in comparison is 10x better looking than any of those tumblr girls, from people judging her, using her, abusing her, mistreating her etc. she has now lost the ability to trust in a way cause it would take a lot to gain that trust & i believe that anyone who makes someone feel this way is just disgusting & they should be ashamed, girl, if you know your the one im on about the your the closest to perfect i know, definitely not tumblr girls :’) Rant over :) <3

Loneliness Is Cold, Boring, Tiring, Sad But we can’t avoid it so embrace it & try to find someone that makes you feel Warm, Happy & Excited :3 <3